"TO KNOW SOMEONE AGAIN"
There’s bravery in the way we try to reconnect with other people, messaging someone you haven’t been talking to for a while, submitting yourself to uncertainty and possible embarrassment at the thought of them not even acknowledging your effort to reach out and chat. Because let’s face it, when the people that once became so familiar to you suddenly become absent or distant, it doesn’t feel quite the same anymore when you speak to each other again or try to rekindle what came to a standstill.
There’s a barrier that the both of you unconsciously experience. A barrier that hinders the comfort you know you should be feeling inevitably—because it’s them after all. It’s a person that you once spent immeasurable time with. So, it becomes frustrating, for someone to suddenly feel foreign, just because a few days, or weeks, or months passed by without the sensation of the other’s presence being right there.
But the thought of them reappearing again? The thought of you passing by their mind one day, while they’re doing something as senseless as scrolling through their phone or as important as answering a test; your image flashing in their head and then the need to tell you they thought of you and hoped you’re doing well—now, that counts to something.
Oftentimes, not everyone can do it. Not everyone can have that kind of bravery. Not everyone can willingly put themselves in a situation that bears so much dilemma. Most of the time, we think it’s better to keep ourselves in the dark and just relive the memories instead of making the big step to make more of them. And sometimes we can’t blame ourselves, because memories do hold a certain significance in our life that new experiences just can’t beat.
That doesn’t mean it’s good to stay in them. Since if remaining in your memories can both have its upsides and downsides, I don’t think regrets possess the same.
